college

Applying to college is getting really old. I had heard it was going to be tough, but it is so much more. I am sooooo tired of filling out applications and writing essays. I try not to think about where I'm actually going to get in, because then the stress level increases to a new level. I end up asking myself questions like where am I going to be at this time next year? What's going to happen to me? Where am I headed in life? Am I headed anywhere in life? I just want it to be second semester so that I don't have to worry about this crap anymore, but even then the wait will not be over until April. I am foreseeing three months of lying in bed at night and being plagued by the vicious questions listed above. Its really hard to stay focused in high school when all this college bs is infecting my brain. High school seems less and less important everyday, yet it is still as important as ever until next semester. I don't know what's going to happen to me, but something tells me it's not going to be good.