College Woes

I have terrible senioritis. I haven't done homework for weeks. Or any work at all. I don't know where all the time goes. I usually find myself eating, sleeping, or going on facebook. But this pattern cannot continue. I need to keep my grades up if I am to have any chance at all of getting into college. This whole college deal is freaking me out. My parents are under the impression that when I sit in my room for hours I am working studiously on supplements and homework. I am supposed to have all of my applications ready by the end of the week so I don't have to work all vacation. Unfortunately, I have seven more supplements to go. When they find out that I haven't been working at all, there will be a problem. They just don't understand that I have things to do. Facebook needs to be checked, My Life is Average needs to be read, and the weather channel has to constantly be monitored in case of a spontaneous snow storm. If I get actually get started on college stuff, everything goes fine until I have to write something. I can fill out my name, birth date, and social security number for hours without getting tired. But then comes the dreaded essay with some question about why I want to go to the college and what I have to offer. I don't think colleges need to ask why I want to go to the college. They should just accept the fact that I am applying, and feel flattered. I never know how to answer that part of the question. Because the campus is pretty? Because the food is good? Because my parents are making me? I can never come up with any good answers to that question. And as for what I have to offer the school, I am always at a loss for words. Besides my sunny disposition, and my irresistible wit and charm, I don't have much to offer. I am not nationally ranked in any sort of sport, or really good at any other activity. I do lots of things, but I can't write down "is ok at a, b, and c." I also can't write down how excellent I am at things because that would be a lie. And if I got into college because of that lie, my whole life would be based on a lie. I won't even get started on the cost of applying to colleges. I don't want to have to pay $75 to get DENIED to Harvard or some other school. If I shell out my hard earned money, colleges should at least have the decency to accept me. The College Board is another organization that is just out to get money. I got a letter from UNH telling me that my SAT scores had not been sent. I found this odd, because I had spent an hour on the SAT site trying to send my four free score reports. UNH was on the list, and I had even printed out the receipt. My mother called the College Board angrily to ask what was wrong, and after being on the phone for 2 hours, and on hold for more than 45 minutes, they told her there was nothing they could do. I had simply not pressed the "send" button when I had sent my scores, and I was going to own up to my mistake. Then they hung up. This does not bode well for my college application process. If I can't even send in SAT scores correctly, how am I going to fend for myself once I get into college? My main fear about applying is that I will be 0 for 11, and I will have to live in my parents basement for the rest of my life, a complete failure. Except my mother has told me several times that I will have to move out if I don't go to college. So I will either go live with my neighbors, or be homeless. And unless I get my act together, that is the horrible truth I have to face.