one day.

Colleges, colleges, colleges. Everything ties back to that. The classes I take, decide whether I get into college. The test scores I get and how much I study for them, decide whether I get into college. 250 words, can decide whether I get into college. And what college I go to "decides how I do in life". See I don't believe this, yes those factors all contribute to what college I get into and yes good college degrees help you get good job interviews but if you have the capacity to succeed, no matter what you'll find a way to do it. I'm not even sure if I'm applying to the right colleges, there's hundreds and hundreds of them, hundreds you will never even know existed. What I wonder is why college is even such a big deal? And then there's the other problem, writing the college essay. Finding a story that works since everything is supposed to be stories and descriptions that reveal something about your character. But when I write, its usually musings, like this, where I just write out my thoughts, instead of describing random things. I could write narratives on random events, but would they tell anything about me? Blah I want answers to these questions. Or really, I just want this year to be over. That would be so much more satisfying. One day. One day.